Playlist of the week 1

Greatest Friend - Cathy Crescendo
"But if you forgot how to love, we'll teach you again.
I'm gonna scream it till they know that jesus christ is lord.
Is this boring? I'll tell you you a story, then, about my long lost love and my greatest friend."


There Cannot Be A Close Second - Copeland
"You've got an extra special heart
a perfect light that shines through.
But it seems like the hardest part is shining back at you.
So forgive me if I don't know what to do...
when you look at me."


Shoreline - Deas Vail
"The shoreline calls the sea, for simple words and company.
But words go on and on, till they collide and all is gone.
I dive into the deep— into the sea inside of me
To find another song, To find a place where I belong."


The Ponytail Parades - Emery (the acoustic version!)
"Three sleepless nights...this isn't how it's supposed to be,
but you're so good at taking your time to get back to me.
and i will wait for you forever, if you would just ask me
and I thought that I could change you, but you've changed me..."


Sleeping For So Long - Fairgreen
"I was a fool to think there was nothing more
to life beyond the tangible...
to sacrifice my soul for fame and gold.
Just to die alone, forgotten of.
Forgive me of my crimes, open up my eyes.
I've been up all night, just to see the sunrise
I just wanna see the sun!"


She Is - The Fray
"This is gonna break me clean in two...
This is gonna bring me close to you...
She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted.
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed."


Fairest of them All - Slaid Cleaves
"Oh, let me be in the city of angels.
Yes, this is what I want...
To put on my dress and some red, red lipstick.
Let all the people watch me as I walk."


Do You Feel - The Rocket Summer
"I guess my mind wanders off from time to time
Sometimes I convince myself
that all is fine in the world...
It's not mine! Why should I have to try
to fix things I didn't create or contrive?"


Fools in Love - Inara George
"Fools in love...are there any other kinds of lovers?
Fools in love...is there any other kind of pain?
Everything you do, everywhere you go now...
everything you touch, everything you feel...
everything you see, everything you know now...
everything you do, you do it for your baby love."


Clean Getaway - Maria Taylor
"I met someone at the bar.
He had a great smile and a great heart.
He felt just like love.
Except no fear of losing, and it wasn't tough.
I finally made it, I made a clean getaway.
I finally made it, I made a clean getaway.
And I miss you,
I miss you every single day."

butt-crack.

"buttcrack: American slang for the cleft of the buttocks."

hahaha, not even kidding.
i'm going to call it a butt-cleft from this moment on.

Can't you see?

I'll bring to you whatever you need
And I'll tell you I'm sorry
That I can't take this pain away from you
And I'd put it on my own body if I knew how to
Can't you see?

-Testing the strong ones
by Copeland

my dear friends!

I love having friends that understand me.

That will put pillows under their shirt and pretend to be pregnant
and dance around with me without thinking i'm weird.

Friends that will blast N'sync in the car and scream the lyrics as loud as we can
out the window.

Friends that will ask me questions like "Do you ever pretend to be dead?"

Friends that will stay up all night making me a birthday cake from scratch.
And when they fail...they write "we tried" on top of the cake in frosting
as an explanation.

Friends that will spend two hours in the greeting card aisle with me...
because they know I love greeting cards.

Friends that make me mixed cds "just because"

Friends that won't ask questions or show surprise or disgust when I come up with one of my crazy schemes.

Friends that will duct-tape me to a tree.
and allow me to duct-tape THEM to a tree as well.

Friends that have been, are, and always will be there for me.

Friends that listen to me when I need them, even if it's the middle of the night.

Friends that understand and accept my quirks.

Friends that seek God with everything they have.

Friends that tell me they miss me, even if I just left their house 2 minutes ago.

Friends that will ask me "What's wrong?" if they see the "off" look on my face.

Friends that will stay up till the wee hours of the morning to hear about my day. and tell me about theirs.

Friends that I can trust with anything. No matter how overly funny, sad, scary, or overwhelming it may me.

Friends that will do ballet on the beach with me.

Friends that make me feel like the luckiest person on earth.

Friends that will spend the whole day doing nothing with me
and then say "This was the best day ever".

Friends that will eat mcdonald's with me and say "Forget you" to everyone who thinks mcdonalds is gross.

Friends that inquire and care about my family. even if they've never met them.

Friends that write me silly poems and then read them to me in front of the entire class.

Friends that will have "yellow" parties and photography adventures with me.

Friends that will stay up until 5am playing games, watching exercise television,
and laughing until we turn bright red.

God has blessed me with all of these.

come ON!

It makes me so sad to see couples that don't treat eachother with respect.
Especially (ahem...) teenage couples.
Seriously, how dumb do you sound when you say "Daaaaangg babayyy grrrl, you lookinnn' fine as helll."

Are you kidding?
Fine as hell?
Please...get a fully fuctioning brain
and a more expanded vocabulary.

I even see husbands and wives talk to eachother like that.


When I have a husband, he won't just be my husband.
He'll be my best friend.
My companion.
My safety.
My better half.
My hand to hold.
My partner in crime. and life.
The one I share everything with.
from dreams to silly thoughts.
He will be my crown.
and I will be his.

We will be young elders.
and old children.
Living life beside eachother.

Can't you guys understand how precious that's supposed to be?

I'm losing it.

When did I get soooo apathetic towards school?

I used to semi-enjoy school, actually.
But now...I look at it as something so pointless.

I literally believe that I could do just fine in the world without knowing
any greek mythology, or geometry, or MLA format. (stupid...)

The only things I remember at the end of the day are bible class and the bits of inspiration from my newspaper staff.
and that, I kid you not...is all I remember.

I feel like an idiot in english class because I feel no motivation to write with so much format.

format withing format WITHIN FORMAT.
it's exhausting.
it's overwhelming.

It has brought me many nights of sobbing and being red in the face.
That class has brought me so many mental and emotional breakdowns.

I don't know if I can take it anymore.

The list of what I need in life:

The Bible...my sword
love for my God
love for people...those I dislike too


Why am I wasting my life sitting in this desk?
It's so beautiful! It's so full of wonder!
I don't want to spend it here!

2009...

Here is my only new year's resolution:

Let my heart be broken with the things that break the heart of God.