I'm losing it.

When did I get soooo apathetic towards school?

I used to semi-enjoy school, actually.
But now...I look at it as something so pointless.

I literally believe that I could do just fine in the world without knowing
any greek mythology, or geometry, or MLA format. (stupid...)

The only things I remember at the end of the day are bible class and the bits of inspiration from my newspaper staff.
and that, I kid you not...is all I remember.

I feel like an idiot in english class because I feel no motivation to write with so much format.

format withing format WITHIN FORMAT.
it's exhausting.
it's overwhelming.

It has brought me many nights of sobbing and being red in the face.
That class has brought me so many mental and emotional breakdowns.

I don't know if I can take it anymore.

The list of what I need in life:

The Bible...my sword
love for my God
love for people...those I dislike too


Why am I wasting my life sitting in this desk?
It's so beautiful! It's so full of wonder!
I don't want to spend it here!